I decided that I created my own reality, and just because someone says THIS is what you're supposed to do, does not mean we HAVE to do it. We are all unique individuals here for our own purpose and life path, and we are all here to EMBRACE our authentic self.
All of these past traumas and triggers had resurfaced and made me become lost in substance abuse, to the point where my depression and anxiety prevented me from leaving my house for weeks. I didn't know what made me happy anymore or what I needed to do in order to grow and thrive in this society. So I decided to go within, do the work, and transform and embrace my shadows rather than run from them. This made me realize, I'm not meant to fit in this society, I am meant to stand out and embrace my individuality rather than shy away from it.
I know, sounds so simple right? However, it truly hit me that we don't need to follow the path of other because it is what "society" has taught us. We all have been given the gift of our soul's purpose since birth, serving as a guide on how to live in alignment with our most authentic selves.
COVID hit. I had just started my massage business and was out of a job for 3 months. Unsure of how I was going to care for myself or others, I started to self isolate due to past triggers of social anxiety reappearing.
COVID had begun to ease. I was starting to debate if massage was my career life path or if it was sustainable due to how physically taxing it can be. Started to think long term about my career and how I want to impact the world.
Started seeing a Spiritual Coach to help guide me through my inner thoughts and transitions.
Broke up with my then boyfriend due to feeling lost in who I was and what I was passionate about.
I enroll in the Dharma Coaching Institute and proceed in my own shadow work. I go within via meditations, journaling, coaching, doing research about myself via human design, astrology, numerology to discover any and all reasons for why my soul has come here this lifetime.
One of the loneliest and most fulfilling summers I have had. I had started to move past my anxiety due to recognizing my own self worth and my own innate power, but I was still scared and felt as if there was more to do. I hadn't fully embraced who I was yet, but I was on the right track. Just a little further.
Started to spiral out of control. Lost all of my friends due to the break up. I had a hard time making friends due to social anxiety. My depression and my anxiety were at an all time high and the only thing I could think to do was to abuse substances.
I started to acknowledge that I couldn't keep living like this. That I didn't WANT to live like this. That in order for me to help others and to be the person I knew I could be, I had to go within and address my past.
Finally feeling reconnected with my intuitive side, as well as reconnected with my spirit guides. Realized my gift in this life was my words and how they tend to push people towards their life purpose. Decided to become a trauma informed spiritual guide and help people reconnect with their most authentic self.
Recognizing my own power and taking charge of my life by launching my coaching business and pushing for the life of freedom that my Manifestor Human Design craves. Feeling like my most authentic self and establishing a life that aligns with my soul's desires.
Did you know that your birth date, time, and location are guides to what your life path and life journey can look like? Want to know more?
Yes, yes. I am that girl that is obsessed with Fall and anything associated with pumpkin spice and Halloween! What can I say?? It just makes me feel so cozy and happy, so why would I deny myself joy?
Miss Luna and Mr. Ollie are my whole world! Both are rescues and have given me so much purpose in life. What can I say, I love helping others!
Specifically the Antique Anatomy Tarot Deck by Claire Goodchild! The artwork is absolutely stunning and is also so much fun as a massage therapist who knows anatomy. I do a daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly reading. Are you surprised??